Binding Ties

Some see them as shackles,

chains tying them down,

enslaving, forbidding,

 dominating, domineering...

I was their leader,

they were my thoughts...

Hope is all I see 

trust is all I sense

love is all I feel...

now... today, 

I crave for safety,

embittered and battle weary ...

Hidden

 They hear my laughter,

they see me cringe and cry

I fought, then gave in....

not a soul, try as they might, can

 see the real me die inside...

(Tanka is a Japanese prose/poetry form of 5 lines with 31 syllables...5-7-5 // 7-7 format. )

Kind Souls

I journeyed forth,

ploughing through words...

Never contemplating,

but paused here and there,

wondering If I dared  

to bare the chaos 

that is my mind.

Kind souls won't let me flounder,

keep me afloat...

through the tides of convenience.

Make it meaningful...

Every fork end of tales I reach

These roads and forks traversed,

alone I started 

but not any more...

Kind souls won't let me flounder,

keep me afloat...

through the tides of convenience.

Make it meaningful...

(To all those who have been with me as my walk progresses....)

Left Behind

You were my everything,

I meant nothing to you.

You smiled at new faces,

reaching over for a firm handshake.

A curt nod of the head

and a frown was all I got.

You spoke and laughed

with the ones  you had barely met.

An unwilling hello was all you spared

for each one of my efforts.

You dined and wined 

 with the best I could see.

As I watched seated

far away from you.

You were everything to me,

I meant nothing to you.

Soon it was time to walk away,

  I was the one left behind

to find my own way back,

as has always been the case.

I stood there in the rain,

with tears tumbling down my face.

wondering when all those dreams

had slipped away beyond my grasp.

You were everything to me,

I meant nothing to you.

Adrift

A love so strong 

how could it be

so wrong.

You were divine,

meant to be mine.

summer's grace

that was your face.

Flashing meadows,

gushing tides,

your laughter filling up

every site.

Felt you 

in my arms,

felt you

in my soul.

A love so strong 

how could it be

so wrong.

Come back, 

come back from

from the void

 you have gone to.

Take me, 

take me back

to the time

I was before.

A love so strong 

how could it be

so wrong.

The Highway Notes

Standing on the highway, 

watching life zoom by, 

rushing to destinations

near and afar.

Left alone, left behind,

that was me


Leaning on the doorway,

watching people walk by,

homeward bound

they all are.

Left alone, left behind,

that was me.

Seated by the window,

 hearing some one talk,

finding a patient listener

how lucky have they got.

Left alone, left behind,

that was me.

Chatting on the social network,

seeing statements being made,

mutually beneficial exchanges

is the new magic word,

Left alone, left behind,

 that was me.

I end the day's notes,

sometimes high, sometimes low,

Pretending that wasn't you, 

knowing that was definitely me....

You Were There

Eyes that twinkled with the 

glimmering light of far away stars, 

They gazed at me as

though I was their rock star.

Lips that lisped sweet words

in my soul, a chord was struck,

They made mundane words seem

more precious than the preciouss.

Tiny hands that wiped away

the invisible tears I shed,

On my cheeks they felt

like the softest of silks.

The warm body that hugged

sharing all the love it possessed,

The vibe that I sensed 

of the special bond created

The look that you gave reflected

wisdom way beyond your years, 

as though you somehow understood

the pain and ache behind the false smiles.

You gave me something

No one else can ever give,

The warm glow of a million suns

that light up my dark days and nights.

With you around

life is easier to face,

My strength, my sanity, 

my joy, my grace.

 Just remember in

 the days yet to be,

This heart will beat for you

as yours did beat for me.

( Dedicated to my tiny powerhouse of a nephew Sidartha aka Sid, 

whose innocence and love helped me through my darkest year )

Added to Jingle's Poetry Potluck.